THE FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN

Suddenly my life is riddled with so much FEAR. A FEAR that i cant ignore. A fear that whispers coldly to me and sends shivers down me. I dont know what the future holds. A lot of my experiences are influenced by the little decisions that i make. I might chose to ignore that beckoning call to duty. I might chose to take an entirely different path in life and drop everything that I have worked so much for. I might decide to change my behaviour, prioritise and chase different things...
See, I decide if my curent life makes me happy. And Im feeling a certain thrill lately because i surround myself with people who love me and treat me right. This is the happiest I've been in a long time. Happiness is what you feel when you are contented with what you have. Is happiness a state of mind? Are we constantly unhappy because we keep searching for more. We fail to see what we have within our grasp and start looking for more. a MORE that is just an illusion.
The fear of what tommorow will bring. Everyone goes through that. All we have to do today is live our lives right and try to be the happiest we can be.Im at a point where the future is bleak. I cant see the horizon. Im just walking on a road wondering whats this life for.
Should i have  studied for that cource. Should i have said this. Should i have done that? Should i have signed up for this? Should i have bought that dress?
So many questions riddle me. But i guess the beauty of life is TAKING CHANCES and MAKING CHANGES and then sitting back and seeing the results. Whispering in the semi darkness of a candle as you sip on some instant coffee in your small little house. In a not so busy street. Self analysing as you jot some pointers on an old journal you got from a friend.Sitting on your creaky bed that needs a change of sheets. Wondering where you would be if you gave that deal a shot.If only you tried more.Maybe you would be somewhere else sipping wine from a tall glass.Typing your sentiments instead of scribbling them on a dirty dog-eared journal.These streets dont love you.

Young business mogul, I think its time you got a little family,you cant be alone forever. Buy her some flowers and buy some old wine and invite her over. You dont have to take her to an exotic island just to propose to her. She will say yes anyway and shes been waiting for you to ask.

And you young lady take a chance because you want him to be the father of your little babies .You know he is the right man for you because he will never hit you and he will treat you like the queen you are.

Father of three,you have always wanted to study law but you feel you are too old,what will people say? Will you pay for your tution fees or your kids? By the time you are done, you will be in your late fourties. Do what your heart desires and take a chance.Your wife and kids will understand if they love you.

You want to start that magazine but you fear for it to be a flop. Will you have enough content. Is your team strong enough? Rome wasnt built in a day girl. Take your time and learn the ropes, YOU JUST MIGHT MAKE IT.